Beauty is more than what you see...

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Life as we know it...

Have you ever noticed how much one tiny life can affect a whole world of people?? My precious Abigail was finally born on 10/15/05, my mom's birthday and the 21st anniversary of my uncle's murder. And being only minutes old her birth impacted so many peoples lives it almost seemed unreal. But for the first time in 21 years I watched Joy come back into my family's lives. And when I looked up to see my mother's face it was like someone took all the bad that had ever happend in her life and washed it all away! And then after we bring her home I find a letter that my little sister -who was ready to give up on life and everything - had written to my little angel.
She told her how she was ready to give up on everything until she held her for the very first time, and said that she was the reason why she decided to keep on going!! So many things have happened that I am completely amazed at the phenomenons that have taken place since then. And I thank God daily for my angel.

Life as we all know it has changed and will never be the same. And to me that is a great blessing!!! My prayer now is that everyday for the rest of my precious baby girl's life she makes a life changing impact on peoples lives everywhere!!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

The waiting game...

Have you ever wondered why it is that waiting seems to be such a horrible experience?? What is it that makes us so crazy when we are waiting for something to happen??? Could it be the excitement of knowing whats to come? Or the dread of something we know is going to be painful or boring??
I'll never really understand why I hate to wait but I do know this for a fact.... for the rest of my life I will always have to wait for something! Might as well get used to it huh??

This wait drives me more insane than any other! I dont know when the moment will be and Im kinda frightened about the whole thing! Im tired of waiting and tired of sitting still!!! I know my precious Abi will be here soon but when??? What will it be like??
One thing I hate is when people tell me how horrible the process will be and how bad it will hurt and this and that - Im excited, scared , but excited! The pain is temporary and the joy lasts a lifetime!!!! I think worse than any physical pain could possibly be is this stupid waiting game!!!!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Sometimes we do things we dont necessarily want to....

Well to be quite honest the last 24 hours have not been the easiest!!! And since I've been in labor since 5am this morning.... well that just kinda sets the tone doesnt it??

Have you ever really not wanted to deal with something- but you had to completely??? I have come to this realization, if we dont deal with things as soon as they come up - we arent going to ever deal with them or when we finnally do.. its harder than it would have been to begin with!!! It doesnt necessarily have to be something bad either... it can be something that is to our benefit- but is still hard to deal with.
I guess heres a word from the experienced - dont ever put ANYTHING on the back burner to let it boil and boil till all you can do is deal with it.....

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Its new...

I guess I just got tired of stupid blogs that dont make any sense at all.... this one seemed simple enough - and I dont have to work around stupid things on it....

You never know what to expect from me on here so I guess just stay posted and you'll get a surprise every once in a while. Mostly I talk about life in general - my peeves and my questions. Theres so much that can be questioned, and theories and hypothisis to come up with....

So who knows what youll get to see here.....