Beauty is more than what you see...

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Almost there...

Well its now only 5 hours till 2006 and I have 10 billion things going through my mind. I dont really know what to think anymore. What to expect in the new year? Im not really sure and I dont really know! I pray that this next year is better than the last!!! I feel like I am standing on the edge of a mountain staring into the unknown or better senario standing at the front of an uncharted jungle not knowing whats inside or who is out there! Am I afraid? I'm not really sure! I am kinda but on the other hand Im not!

Oh well my mind just went completely blank and I dont have anything else -

Happy New Year everyone!

Thursday, December 29, 2005


Well the one thing i never thought would happen happend. Its over. And all ive done since he left my porch is cry. I dont let anyone see and i act ok, like nothin is wrong. But inside i feel dead. I want so bad to call him hear his voice. Just say i love you one more time. I miss his touch. His gental way. I cant eat. I dont sleep. I love him deeper than words can say but i cant have him. This hurts so horribly. I wish it never ended! All i can say now is "Jesus take the wheel. Take it from my hands. I cant do this on my own. Im letting go gimme one more chance save me from this road im on. Jesus take the wheel." *carrie underwood* i know ill get through this beacause with God all things are possible. But for now i hurt.